Hello from Sky Deck Level 3

Things are going pretty well, although my delivery still hasn't come, which pisses me off, but other than that, pretty well. Umm, New Years was nuts, I don't remember much of New Years Eve night, but that is probably for the best of it. Other than that, I watched quite a few movies over break and got to get my game on with the Wii for a bit. Hung out with some friends and drank some beers. Not too much to report on... Lets see, I'm still reading my David Sedaris, well, re-reading at this point. I also picked up some Charles Bukowski poetry with a Barnes & Nobel gift card from my parents which I have been reading at night. Probably not the best idea since it's pretty messed up shit, but ohh well. I seem to get to bed fine, it's waking up that is the problem :-P Messed up dreams lately though. I had a dream last night that I was walking around New York City smoking, and that was it, and from what I remember it was a pretty long dream, but that is all I did. I've never been to New York and never smoked cigarettes, which is what made it odd. Other than that it was a pretty tranquil dream, something I wouldn't mind having again. It kind of makes me never want to go to New York, just for the fact that it might spoil that dream. Like a toy you yearned for as a child, then once you got it, it really wasn't as fun as you had thought. Work seems to go pretty good once I make it in. I keep ontop of the things that I need to get done and hope to keep pushing myself harder, not for the fact that I want to be good at my job, but that it seems to keep my mind busy and the day goes by faster. Plus, I want to get home sooner so I can wait by the doorstep for my delivery I'm yearning for that won't be as good when it arrives, hence the inevitable flaw of hoping for anything. Yet, what's the fun in life without hope and disappointment right ;) Yeah, I know that seems pretty messed up, but sometimes reality is that way... well most of the time reality is that way, kind of like the saying the strangest fiction is often fact, or something like that. Anyway, enough of this, if you wanted to know more you would be more interested and try and contact me, or maybe not, maybe whom ever reads this thinks I would hate them or be judgemental or something that people do to try and stop themselves from doing stuff. It's really not that bad, I promise. I leave you with a haiku.

Pages die near me,
Paper folds origami,
Five doves for the flight.

Day 2

So last night I went and got the transporter movies (1 &2) and a weird movie about clown zombies (I'm pretty sure every girl I ever dated would probably hate this movie), watched transporter 1, which was pretty good, and I'm pretty sure I had seen it before but didn't remember much about it. I went to best buy again and looked at the TVs, I really really want to get it! Then I got tired of being by myself so I went and hung out with Troy, watched some random TV then got some Wendy's went home and slept :-/

No Children

I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us

I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again in my life

I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong

I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand

And I hope you die
I hope we both die

For anyone who is interested

Just because it is easier to show then it is to explain. I help change a helicopter cockpit from something like this
into something more like this (yes I know they are two different helicopters, but its the best example I could find)

Whoa

Okay, that good mood didn't last for long. Lets just say I'm an idiot... How did I know I would end up doing this. Yeah, I feel like shit now.

Okay.... so yeah...

I am in very good mood :) Yeah, I won't... yeah, teehee!

Updates

Alright, it has been a while since I have posted anything... So here is a big update. I now live in Cedar Rapids, found a home on the NE side. I have been changing the house my own tastes. I got a whole new bedroom set and painted the bedroom a grayish-blue with a blue stripe. I have also been working on the kitchen, we are painting it green and are going to put up a white tile back splash. I also got a new cat, her name is Pi, she is black with a little patch of white on her chest, she is great and was a rescue kitten, I got her at the beginning of July, so about 3 years after Six came along. They both love the new house, especially the 3 seasons porch. I work at Rockwell now, I'm doing Software Development for the Rotary Wing Displays Team, it's fun. Any who, that is my quick update for anyone that is interested.